Today’s Reading: Enos 1: 1-13
4 And my soul hungered; and I kneeled down before my Maker, and I cried unto him in mighty prayer and supplication for mine own soul; and all the day long did I cry unto him; yea, and when the night came I did still raise my voice high that it reached the heavens.
This verse speaks to me on such a personal level. I can relate to Enos, kneeling down before his Maker, pouring his heart and soul out, hungering for truth and knowledge and forgiveness and peace. Many times as a teenager I knelt down in my bed and silently cried to my Heavenly Father. Between the regular rigors of schoolwork and applying for colleges, the heartache of break-ups, various extra-curricular activities and work, and the pain of divorce and moving schools, I was constantly emotionally drained. I learned to rely on my Savior more than ever during my high school years. I was so lucky to have great seminary teachers and church leaders, and amazing friends that I could turn to in my time of need, that helped buoy me up and help me know where to turn to. To Him. And turn to Him I did.
And then I got to college, and again my soul hungered for peace and knowledge as I navigated living on my own, paying my own bills, and saying good-bye to my high school boyfriend as he left to serve a mission. And then later, as I was making the decision on who to marry, and what major to choose, I again turned to the Lord for His guidance. I was like Enos, crying to Him all the day long for supplication for my soul.
The words of this song, based on this verse, constantly filled my mind:
Oh, my soul hungered, my heart cried out: “Please Lord, release me from pain and from doubt.” Oh, my soul hungered the moment I knelt down to pray, and felt all my doubts wash away. Oh, my soul hungered, He heard my cry. The voice of the Lord spoke peace to my mind… With all my heart, with all my soul, I wrestled before the Lord to make my life whole. He filled my hunger, He fed my soul.
This song made me cry then, and it still does now. Because I have hungered, and He has filled me. I have wrestled before Him, and He has delivered me. I have cried for release from pain and doubt, and He has offered His peace and His comfort, and spoken truth to my soul.
Oh, I am so grateful for Him. For His knowledge and awareness of me. And I am so grateful for the way He has filled me up.
Wife to Kyle, and momma to Abe and Eliza. I’m a stay-at-home momma by day, and a blogger by naptime. I graduated from BYU with a degree in Human Development, and I love to read more than anything. I love my Savior, and sharing His love for others is my greatest passion.