Today’s reading: Jacob 6
5 Wherefore, my beloved brethren, I beseech of you in words of soberness that ye would repent, and come with full purpose of heart, and cleave unto God as he cleaveth unto you. And while his arm of mercy is extended towards you in the light of the day, harden not your hearts.
Every time I begin to feel strong in the Lord and sure of the church, doubts begin to creep back up and I am tempted to give into pride. I also have a tendency to easily be hurt and get frustrated with my husband.
We watched General Conference on Saturday with my entire family, while live tweeting it–I love live tweeting Conference. I get to share my testimony and I get to be uplifted by others’ testimonies. What a great way to flood social media with the Gospel! I went to bed on Saturday feeling more positive about life and faith.
Then, Sunday morning came along. After an argument and heated words over a dumb, insignificant thing, I had to leave the house. I had to find peace. I wanted to clear my head and ask for help. So, as the morning session was beginning, I jumped in the car and started driving to the mountains.
We live in Davis County, Utah, right at the foot of the mountains, and I love driving through the elevated neighborhoods and finding different hidden trails. I turned General Conference on the radio and listened as I drove. All ready, I was feeling better. After the first talk, I had found a trail tracing a stream that wound up to the mountains through a neighborhood. I parked the car, turned Conference on my iPod, regretted not bringing headphones, and started walking up the trail.
As I began walking, I had a silent prayer in my heart: “Please, Heavenly Father, be with me. Forgive me my pettiness this past week. Show me the strength in thy church. Show me my own strength and help me be better. Help me continue to get closer to thee.”
And you know what, I found Him there in that mountainous trail following the stream. My anger dissipated. My doubts were replaced with foundation. I had found my peace because I cleaved to Heavenly Father. I was refreshed. I was renewed. I was happy. I felt Him there with me.
I promise you, if you earnestly search out Heavenly Father, He will be there for you. As we learned in Conference this past weekend, He loves you personally and dearly. He will strengthen you, He will forgive you, He will fortify you and protect you.
I am an English and history teacher turned stay-at-home mom to Rhys, the rambunctious toddler. I was blessed to marry my college best friend. I am obsessed with all things medieval, Welsh, historical, and fantasy. I love to read, write, cook, run, and learn. I have recently come to love and appreciate living in the center of Utah and close to both sides of our family.
I loved this experience of yours…cause it is so like mine! Thanks for being real, Taylor!